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A New Beginning　一個新的開始

It feels odd. Coming back here. This blog. It's taken me about a week to write this. I kept coming back. Deleting bits. Adding bits. The thing is, I'm not an emotional person. I'm emotional, obviously. I have emotions but I don't embrace grief. I guess I'm very British.

很怪。回到這兒很怪。這個blog。我寫這篇寫了好幾個禮拜。到現在還在適應這個blog。刪了些東西，也加了些東西。然後就這樣了。我不是個情緒化的人，但我很情緒化，顯然是。我有情緒，但我不能說我悲慟萬分。我想。我會說我很「英國」。

I don't like to talk about it.

我不想談這件事。

But I've been told that I should talk about it. That if I don't talk about it I'll be how I was pre-Sherlock. And I can't go back to that. I've a life now.

但我被要求要談談它。還說如果不談這件事，我會回到「夏洛克前」的狀態，我實在不想變成那樣。所以我得談談這件事。我現在有新的人生了。

I understand that he's dead. And I accept it. I still believe in him. In who he was. The truth behind that will come out, I believe that. But Sherlock is dead and that period of my life is behind me.

我知道他死了。我也接售這個事實。但我依然相信他。相信他的為人。有一天我相信世道將還他清白。但夏洛克死了，和他一起生活的我，也已經不復存在。

And that's what life is. Things happen. Then they're in the past. And you move on to new things. New people. New friends. New beginnings.

這就是人生。事情來了。事情又過了。然後又有新的事情發生了。認識新的人，新的朋友，新的開始。

But it's also important not to forget the past. And I've found a few photos and a few blog posts I never finished so over the next few weeks I'll be doing that really. Remembering the past.

但不忘過往也很重要。我發現有些照片、有些部落格文章我都還沒弄完，接下來的幾個星期，我真的要認真整理。紀錄過往。

And I won't feel sad about it. Not any more. Because they were good times. We did good and we had fun. And that's what I'm going to remember. My best friend, and he'd kill me for saying that's what he was, is dead. Sherlock Holmes is dead.

我不會難過。再也不會了。那是美好的時光。我們幹得很好，而且玩得盡興。那就是我要好好記住的。我最好的朋友，那個「敢這樣說我我就宰了你」的最好的朋友，死了。夏洛克福爾摩斯死了。

But, by God, he'll never be forgotten.

但他永遠不會被遺忘。

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